Thursday, November 29, 2012
Today’s quote – “In the immortal words of Jean-Paul Sartre, ‘Au revoir, Gopher.’”
I've always found the feeling of "leave them wanting more" to be almost unbearably disappointing. There are times when I'm talking with special friends and it makes me very sad because I know that it will be a long time before it happens again. Not really a fan of being satisfied with what I'm offered. I'd much prefer to be satiated than merely tantalized by a small portion of gopher.
I seem to mourn the loss of any thing that I adore. Take away my Doctor and I turn into the same Weeping Angel that just tried to send an entire village back in time. When Buffy ended I actually went outside and cried. It's not like I was a teenager. I wasn't even the same age as the Buffy characters. The re-runs were on their way --syndication had already begun -- but it wasn't the same.
Nope. I want trivia nights with former co-workers to go on until the wee hours. I want drinks with gossipy girlfriends to extend far past the end of a work day. I want prolonged telephone calls filled with nonsense and silly jokes, just as if we were really together hanging out. It doesn't happen, but it doesn't stop me from wanting it. I am hopeful that I am able to hold my disappointment of "until we meet again" in check; that it's not as painfully obvious as it is inside my own head.
I'll try to pretend I'm content enough, but it's not really true. Just let me be selfish. I don't want a gopher sampling. Find me a whole damn gopher village.